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I’m writing this because I’m running out of time… I’m writing this before the promise dies… before our lifeline slowly fails, before its pulse fades. And what is love without someone left to believe it happened? Promises don’t die loudly. There are no findings of a shatter, crash, or warning. They simply fall into a flat line. First in small hesitations, then in softened expectations. Through disappointment and delayed conversations. Until one morning you wake up and there is nothing left to grieve because it has already vanished. They would think writing is ambition or ego, a hunger for legacy—but this is not ambition. I write like Hamilton, frantic, not because I want to be remembered, but because I am terrified of disappearing from the world where you still look for me. I’m afraid we’ll run out of time. I’m so scared I’m losing my only witness— you. This is resuscitation. This is me pressing my palms against the chest of something breaking, begging it to breathe and show signs of life, before silence calls it gone. A blank page is my emergency room where I keep the door open long enough for hope to stabilize. It is the place where I can bleed the ink and my heart out without losing everything beyond what even doctors can’t recover. I write so the pulse is still visible, so there is still something to fight for. So that the record would show as “alive but struggling” instead of “gone without witnesses.” Writing is the last ICU trip before my absence. It slows the final collapse of weight in my body. It is the only form of breathing I have left that doesn’t abandon me when every system in my body starts failing me. Without this, there would be no diagnostics, no chance of intervention, only slow deterioration until absence feels like inevitability. I am trying to outwrite disappearance— they think you mourn after something dies. But I am still in the trauma bay with my sleeves rolled, hands shaking, exhausting any procedure I can think of to keep our lifeline from flatlining. That is my resuscitation protocol. That is why I’m writing this to you, not to convince you with flowery intentions, not to decorate regret in pretty language, but to keep us from being pronounced dead before I’ve had the chance to fight for what’s left. Because the moment I stop writing, the moment I pull the plug, I become the one who declared time of death.