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In a world poisoned in the eyes of love, I will be the iris that opens yours. With every melody of every song, it feels as though something is softly touching my heart. I cannot quite understand what I think now, but with every embrace of the wind, it’s as if there’s a kind of magic binding me to something unseen. Through the lyrics of “Iris” by the Goo Goo Dolls, something stirs in my mind—as if two souls, once different, became each other’s refuge, became each other’s home, and then met again after the bond that once tied them had gone silent. In your absence, it felt like I had lost myself too—the part of me that knew how to love deeply. But now, I never would have thought that after months of silence, we would meet again—the same person who once passed by me like a fleeting shadow is now part of my life again. And with your return, everything came back—and I guess, the universe let us reunite again. Beyond our laughter and smiles, there’s that familiar voice knocking on my heart again—the one that keeps leading me back to you. But this time, it feels different—because now, my love for you runs even deeper. “And I don’t want the world to see me, ‘cause I don’t think that they’d understand.” Simple words, yet heavy with meaning. Amid the noise that surrounds me, it’s your presence I long for. To everyone who misunderstands me, you are the only one who truly sees me. Would it be wrong to say that you’re the one who taught me how to be real? And every time you notice me, I forget—just for a moment—that I’m not supposed to love you. How do you silence a heart that refuses to lie? How do you reject a feeling that stays even when you try to let it go? But what if, after all the secrets I’ve buried, you remain in every prayer I whisper—even when our connection has long faded? What if, in the friendship we built, I’m the only one slowly breaking and healing at the same time? Because I loved you truly—at the wrong time, in the wrong way, I've loved you for a long time— It’s only with you that I’ve ever felt this kind of attachment. I loved my only friend I was never supposed to love, and that’s when the silence began to crumble. You never know when a laugh becomes a prayer, or when a glance turns into a confession. Between breathing and pretending, you learn to listen to the heartbeat you keep denying—a heart that knows how to stay calm in front of you, yet keeps searching when you're gone. And that’s when you understand: some feelings must die before they’re even born, because when you choose to fight for them, it’s yourself you’ll lose. In the end, the love you never asked for becomes the fiercest one—a secret you choose to hide, yet with every denial, you breathe more life into it. Until one day, you simply grow tired—not of loving, but of hiding. And in the last breath of your feelings, you’ll hear the whisper of your heart: “I loved him, even when I shouldn’t have.” And at last, that becomes your forgiveness—the acceptance that sometimes, some loves must remain secret to stay true. Because of you, in your return, I found myself again—you’ll never know it, but you were the one who pieced together my shattered heart. And all of that, when everything’s made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am.