I never knew I’d long for this so much. I’d never expected these scenarios would eat me full, that I’d rather die than to be swallowed whole by nostalgia.

“Take me back to the start”

I had never imagined it would be this hard—to let go of things in order to have a fresh start.

It took me a couple minutes to study and process life as I stared deeply into our new classroom. I knew this was once home to some before they let go of things to start a new one.

My eyes roamed around the room, trying to find comfort between the corners. I studied them one by one with carefulness. I knew right away that these people around me are not my group.

So easy for me to judge, but aren’t I being careful with myself?

That line was popular in my head, and looks like I’m just talking without thinking about what I had just said.

But I never knew… that what was once I was afraid of became my solace.

I had never been this attached from the very start, not until I looked them in the eyes… for one last time, as a family.

Memories began to scatter inside my head, the bond we made, and laughter echoed and I just waited until they were dead inside my mind and head.

I wasn’t feeling myself inside our house, it feels like I’m missing something and I’m also starting to feel homesick despite being with my biological family.

Never knew I would long for them so much. The home we built was the home I was totally missing out on. I stared at the corners of our house thinking they would magically appear out.

That’s when my smile faded.

“They won’t appear even if I stared at it the whole day,” I said to myself.

Time happened to be ticking very fast. I can’t even wait to finish that school year just a few weeks ago—but here I am—cannot wait any longer to finish this break to see my whole family inside our once so-called home.

Nothing's better than the feeling of being together no matter how many circumstances we face—at least we are together, and happily cheering for each other.

We were once afraid of entering the room of our new house, but here we are, part of its history.

Until we see you again, home.

The Frontman